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Fiesta Time!

23 May

Sorry I have been absent from my posts… I have just started up a new job. Nothing fancy, I am working at an upscale Mexican restaurant down in Soho and tonight. Tonight was my first night. I work part-time during the day and take a summer course so this will just be 3 nights a week. I had a really great first day though. The restaurant is very easy-paced and because it is more expensive I still make a solid amount in tips which is rather important for the impoverished college student. It was so funny, the first person I really spoke with (the bartender) told me he had gone raw for 5 years and worked in all these juice bars and basically we just chatted about wheatgrass and nutrients for twenty minutes- I was so happy! Anyways, I have yet to decide whether the temptation of mexican food so frequently will be good for my diet plan or bad, but I actually think it’ll be good. I’ll be kept very busy running around, which will keep me from binge snacking and just binging in general. MOST of all, (and one of the main reasons I got a part-time night gig) is that it will keep me from going out with my friends most nights (like I have been) therefore keeping all that alcohol and late-night 2nd dinner away and save me a bit of money too. Overall, I am very pleased…

Unfortunately, however; I haven’t been to the gym for a week. I have just been lazy, but I figure I will work it into my schedule and get back on track. It’s funny, I actually started this blog when I was about a size 6 and since have grown to a size 8, and even though my goal is to slim down, I really embrace my bigger size as well. It’s strange because all my friends are so skinny, but I still feel and feel like I look so sexy. I am actually RATHER curvy right now, and I am such a curve lovin’ gal that I Can’t Help but love ’em. I don’t feel as strong physically though, soI will definitely be heading back to the gym. Life is just so much better when you stop being on a diet. I have decided no more crazyness – just eat less, exercise M-O-D-E-R-A-T-I-O-N.

Lately, I haven’t been concerning myself with food, nutrients, starving, cooking etc. and life has been so much better. WEll, I’ve also been going out a lot, but still food is such a pressure and a burden in society. Lets just stop it all, enjoy eating, enjoy food and enjoy living! woohoo

Stuffed to the Gills

14 May

So I spent this weekend at my parents house and just ate and ate and ate. I feel HUGE, stuffed to the gills. I still haven’t gotten back to the gym. Sorry for all of these pity posts, but I don’t knows whats going on with me, I can’t stop gorging myself on food.

Tomorrow I start a new course (Forensic Pyschology! fun fun), I’m doing laundry, cleaning the apt and heading to the gym. I also have not one, but two dates this week. Very strange and very lucky, how do I get two dates in one week when I feel so gross and feel like I look so gross. Look forward to more positive posts in the future I promise.
Also, I just ordered a super pretty japanese bento lunchbox and plan to make some great lunches which I will readily post!

bingeing, bingeing: Must stop!

9 May

Ahh I’ve been eating so much lately, just gorging myself on fancy dinner of guacamole stuffed mexican food or piles of sushi. I have gained so much belly fat, it is just embarassing. Must get to the gym soon. I’ve been trying to have fun, which I know should be something you TRY, but I have been severly restricting myself for I suppose over a year now to Calm my life down, party less, be more responsible in school etc.
But I have been well-behaved and responsible for TOO long and with the summer apon me i need to learn to balance both, just like I must stop this yo-yo healthy dieting/ bingeing. Ahh but it’s so hard. How do you socialize without food or alcohol? Seriously.

Gone for a little, now I’m back!

8 May

Hey! sorry I’ve been absent from the web for a bit. I just finished up my finals yesterday and now post-celebrating, I’m back! The week has been rough, I’ve been eating a ton-going out to dinner, brunch, and not going to the gym. I’ve been having long partying nights too, which just kill your energy, looks and everything. Ahhh, all the lightness of my post-Master Cleanse self is gone.

I went shopping for shorts yesterday and was stunned to see that I have gone UP a size. I am no a sz 30, up from a 28 last summer. I wonder if all my dieting worrying is sabotazing me! My real goal for the next few weeks is to get to the gym at least 5 days a week. I am working more at my job (at a branding company). Luckily my hours are very flexible, I can work either 2-4 days a week, half day or full-day, whatever. So there is really no excuse I cannot get my butt to the gym. I think I’m going to organize a reasonably strict schedule for this week, plan out fun classes to do (I am a crunch member, afterall and they are known for their “superfun classes”).

I’ve been thinking about the Master Cleanse….
One of the reasons I was so happy on it was that I was calm, finally not stressing for once over calories, nutrition and food costs. I was thinking that incorporating similar simplicity into my life might help me lose the weight the best. I was thinking that protein shakes might be the way to go. Limit myself to 1 or 2 protein shakes and as many fruits and veggies as I want. As much as I HATE processed things, protein shakes are very nutritient rich and would help me get necessary protein (and even fat) into my diet. I would do soy protein shakes a la Whole Foods, not SlimFast etc. Anyone have ideas for a similarly SIMPLE diet plans. Honestly, I’d do a mono diet (all apples all day) but it’s not an effective long-term eating plan…ideas?

Day #5: Oh No I Broke It

28 Apr

Just as avocadogirl was saying that I had willpower…

So all day today i was just fine. I went and had a soothing back massage with my friend to clean out my toxins. It was 8pm and I was getting hungry while waiting to meet my friends for a movie. Unfortunately, I didn’t have any lemonade left. The Stupid Move: I WENT INTO WHOLE FOODS with my friend who needed to pick up a few things and I started to crave. As you guys know, with the fast you don’t crave sugar or pizza you just crave healthy things like a juicy apple or a fresh salad. My stomach and mind went off, I was literally salvating over the vegetable stand. There were samples and i couldn’t resist. From there I got a tiny takeout container and promised myself that would be it. However, I got to the movie and was still hungry and STILL didn’t have my lemonade. It was there that it all ended… I’m talking a lemon bar, popcorn and later a veggie mozzarella wrap.

I am sitting on my computer now after this episode and not killing myself about breaking the fast, but regretting that I ended it so rashly and horribly. I wanted to ease myself back into food, go for a raw food diet afterwords, maintain a light stomach, etc. Now, I am lying here with a TOO full belly and not feeling cleanse-tastic anymore. Shame, shame. I have just decided to go through with it and drink my herbal laxative tea tonight and salt flush in the morning, then see how I feel. I want to get my light stomach back so I can either start my cleanse again or start my healthy eating on the right food.

My main problem with eating by the way is not the wrong food, just that I eat TOO much. I generally eat very healthy-consciously and nutritiously. The only complaint I can think of is that I drink too much. But hey, justified-I’m young and most of my socializing happens at bars (even though i am starting a revolt to change that). The best thing about the cleanse is that I had a light stomach all day. Eating too much gives you a heavy stomach that makes you feel sick or just tired. I’m not saying a STUFFED stomach, I have just realized (even more so through the cleanse) that I feel happiest and healthiest when I have a light stomach. Small portions is really the way to go.

My god, I have eaten so much food and so unproperly – I don’t even know what my body is going to do with it! Plus the laxative tea… wish me luck. Not to beat up on myself too hard, but I guess the AM will be a punishment for the mistakes of PM.

Allow me to indulge you as I have indulged myself

4 Apr

I have just eaten my way through the some of the best meals of my life today.
It began with delicious sushi for lunch, not fancy, but spicy salmon rolls are my favorite and that is indeed what I had.
Next up, I went to Red Bamboo, a famously delicious Vegan Soul food restaurant on W. 4th St. I shared veggie ribs and a veggie chicken sandwich along with a delicious Indian Roti appetizer. Sharing is the best because the more different taste sensations are so much more satisfying than lots of food.
Next, I ventured to the new Whole Foods Market on Houston. This place is a castle.. fresh, aesthetically gorgeous, epic epic epic- this is not how grocery stores should look, but that is how this one is. Organic walls and paint included. They sell hemp shoes and baby clothes made out of organic cotton… oh and the samples, the sample.

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Finally, I hit up Sugar, a new 24 hour, free wi-fi cafe on Houston with delicious desserts, pastas and sandwiches. Free wi-fi has become a rarity for some reason so this place is a triple threat additionally having great food and being open ’round the clock. I had yogurt and cherry gelato mixed with with tiramisu gelato. The cherry went off like bombs in my mouth and the yogurt flavor was bitter contrasting with the sweetness of the tiramisu and the cherries. This is no binge, this is conscious, mindful eating. I am pleased that I can allow myself this treat, without the guilt that normally comes with overeating/eating desserts. It is here that I remain, tummy full, satiated mind, satiated soul.

Over-Ate eh, but didn’t Binge

25 Mar

ah, I ate so much today. Normal food plus 2 doughnuts, a arepa (fried corneal patty with sweet cheese, plantains and avocado), as well as 1 pumpkin cupcake and super sweet banana pudding from the best bakery in town-SugarSweetSunshine. Right now I am headed out to a friends for some fine wines and a few bars later for some not so fine whiskey-ginger’s. My god what a day, but I also realize that it is really not the end of the world-or the end of my diet.
#1 Its natural to slip up every once in a while
#2 I went to the gym for an hour today
#3 I didn’t binge, which is a big deal. Even though I really overate and treated myself, I was still in control. I have a binging problem-which is characterized by uncontrolled (crazed!) eating. This was over the course of my day, hanging out and eating with friend.

Damage Control: I am attempting to eat around 1500 calories a day. I probably ended up eating an extra 1200 calories-total of 2700. Not really so horrible considering that my daily intake is 2010 calories (2510 plus 500 calories earned at the gym). Anyways not bad at all, just means that my efforts today certainly didn’t help me lose weight, and put me a little step back.

How do you guys do damage control after days over overeating?